A journal for your thoughts?

Today I feel I have learned more than just about any in school day. Why? Perhaps it has to do with my freedom of roaming through the internet using my own interests to educate myself not what the government wants me to learn, but this isn't the moral of today's story. I discovered something about myself which was more or less that I don't like not being connected to the outside world. If correct in my assumption there is a high possibility that it is the main reason for my anxiety attacks. Thus making a feasible argument for my big city aspirations. This led me to wonder why people live where they do. Maybe small town folks live in those localities because they have little to prove or are more content with an uneventful life. which would mean those who want the most out of everyday would live in cities, which would sort of go against my theory considering sometimes I just want to be left alone and have nothing to do with anything. So what it all comes down to I guess is well, people just as life is are confusing.