Childhood come and gone.

My oh my how the time has gone. I can clearly remember sitting in a chair waiting for my first bus to arrive to whisk me off to kindergarten. Now, I can see the final week of my senior year before me. Amazing isn't it when you actually think about how something that seemed like it would take so long is finally here. It's bitter sweet as well for with graduation comes a huge step towards independence and growth. I can live with that though I'm most certainly ready for a new challenge, more so even a new world to face and to shape. I'm certainly excited for what's to come and I'm sure many more adventures will ensue.

Spiraling

I'm starting to become more and more depressed. I have no idea as to what the cause is. My cognitive strengths have been lacking and it's evident by what I have been doing. I wish I could be happy, it's what I want more than anything just to feel ok and not constantly worried/regretful. It's been this way for years and I have no one to blame but myself but.... I just don't know.

Sometimes I post music

Why.

we are born and raised to believe that we live life to be happy, but essentialy there is no rule to society or the universe that explicitly states that, so the question to what do we do has no real specific answer, logically though we live to progress to understand and to develop. So that's where we find a division many find progress to have a different meaning so we as a society have come up with different ways to base our progress. These can be spiritual or scientific. With a spiritual approach one can assume a roll with little to no care for humanistic views one only has to achieve the criteria for a blissful retirement of sorts. When it comes to science one must come to grasp a theoretical end time scenario of the current society and work to progress through it and by doing so understand the world around us. These together have been working cohesively to create diverse views and such is the reason that we have people who are unconcerned and those who are concerned