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feelings

So here I am. Writing. Why? Well that has quite a simple answer. I'm down, and not just kind down. Really down. I feel as if I have no one around me who gives a fuck as to what I do. I care so much about other people, I help them through things I talk to them just to see how they are doing, and yet no one ever asks me  "how you doing man?", or just "what have you been up to lately?". It's very likely I've done this to myself. Maybe I have some huge flaw something that just turns people off. Anyways. I just hole myself up in my room listening to music, djing and sometimes producing till 3 in the morning as well as researching some of the oddest topics (healthy therapy right? *sarcasm*). As a product of this I have picked up incredible observation skills. I notice traits of other people and can pick them apart, as in just understand them I don't mean that in a rude way, like nothing. Oh well. In combination with college applications, and my parent's divorce I'm not doing so hot, but the train keeps a chuggin.